Monthly Archives: April 2012

Boys Trip And Falling Off The Wagon


The boys were on their trip to Nevada this weekend and I fell off the wagon head first. It has been a crazy couple of weeks. I really feel like I have been sabotaging myself and I have to get my emotions under control. There has been so much change in my life recently that I have just been all over the place. I am really struggling with the idea of my kids growing up so fast and all the family drama that has happened so far this year. I know this is what I need to do for myself, my family and it is also what Nana really wanted me to do, but I have so much fear. I just know I can’t afford to fear right now. So tomorrow I am going to recharge my batteries and head for my first goal of 196 (to be out of the 200’s and out of the obese range).

I bought some new shorts for summer , and even though they were the biggest size in the Juniors section (17) I am FINALLY back in Juniors!! OH HAPPY DAY:) !! I have put back on 5 pounds or so but I signed up to take a Crossfit with my sister-in-law and am going to start at least 4 days a week (plus whatever cardio I can squeeze in).

Something really changed my self-destructive behavior and made me want to jump back on the wagon. My Bestie, A, said, “You can’t quit. There are too many people counting on you and inspired by you to quit now!” Thanks A!